Thursday, November 14, 2013


Where to begin.... Four weeks ago the most amazing life change happened to us. Our baby Weston was born! Weston was born October 16, 2013. I had been in false labor for a couple of days and I finally went into real labor the night of the 15th. I was so nervous! Going to the hospital that night was one of the scariest things that I have ever done. We got to the hospital at 3:30 am and Weston was born at 12:39 pm. He weighed 7 pounds 12 ounces and was 20 inches long. He has a beautiful complexion and dark hair, just like his daddy. 

The whole thing was so surreal. When they handed him to me for the first time, I still couldn't grasp that he was mine. That night I was absolutely exhausted so the nurse took him to the nursery for a couple of hours. It was just Steven and I in the room. Steven was sleeping in the pull out bed. It was quiet and dark, except for the night light that was on. The nurse brought the baby back to me a few hours later in the little rolling crib. She took my blood pressure and asked how I was feeling and left. I looked over at the crib and saw his sleeping little face. That was the moment. I just knew he was all mine. 

We had always loved the name Weston. In our first ward in Taylorsville, we were in the primary. There was a boy in our class named Wesley. We just loved Wesley. He was the most tender-hearted boy and he loved Steven. After meeting him, we decided that we wanted a baby named after him. We had a couple of different boy names picked out, but after a few hours of cuddling him, we just knew his name was Weston.

The next few days that followed are a little bit of a blur. I was so exhausted and we were running back and forth to the different families. But there are a few moments that really stick out in my mind. The first morning that we were home and got to sleep in, Steven and I were laying in bed with the baby. Steven turned to me and said, "Why were we so scared of this? I didn't realize that something was missing out of our lives until we had him." I feel the exact same way. Why was I so focused on working and school? Why did I feel like I had to squeeze in just a couple more years of working before I had children? Babies don't care if you are rich. They just need food and love, and we already had that to give. Why was I so worried that things between Steven and I would be so different? I have loved being married from day 1, and I was worried that things would be too different. Our relationship has definitely changed, but it has only made us feel more connected and more in love. There is nothing in the world like seeing Steven hold the baby and watching him take care of us. 

We are tired and exhausted and it is hard to run on a few hours of sleep. But I would take every painful moment and every tired minute in order to have our little buddy with us. He has turned our whole world upside down, but by turning it upside down he has actually turned it right side up. He has shown us what is really important in life. How lucky are we to have such a great blessing.